Last week’s post brought up some interesting discussions. When miscommunication happens, how do you change your way of thinking or yourself to fix the situation? I suggested that changing oneself is the most effective way to obtain that dream job or relationship. The response I got was overwhelmingly “Don’t change for other people.”
What constitutes a fundamental change?
I talked about changes that I’ve recently made in my life. I meet with a nutritionist. I joined a Brazilian Jiu Jitsu class. I signed up to run a 5k.
My friends tell me that these aren’t fundamental changes- they are new activities. On my end, these changes really do feel like fundamental changes. I won’t be the person that I was before as a result of doing them. The nutritionist spoke with me about how I describe myself. Now, I have a bizarre sense of humor, so I tell people I’m an Ewok. Short and fat. In the future, I picture myself as that fat Grandma you go visit who bakes cookies with her grandkids. As someone on a quest to lose weight and be healthier, I’m going to need to describe myself in a new way. So, what’s short and thin? A pixie? I just can’t see myself as that. Am I going to be an old lady gymnasts? Who knows. The nutritionist suggests that part of my issue with losing weight is an inability to see myself in a redefined context.
This is something I struggle with and want to change, but have pretty major reservations about actually seeing the change. So while my friends would say that I’m focusing on my health and getting better, they don’t see me as becoming a new person. I do, and moreover, it’s something I’m doing for outside perception, not for me.
Is it worth it to make a change for someone else?
I would say I am a happy person (within the context as described in this article, which I think is one of the most illuminating things I’ve read recently). I generally look to the future in a positive manner and think things will work out.
I do make the world a little better. I volunteer. I help people when I can. I foster dogs. I think I have a positive net impact and generally am happy with myself. But, that doesn’t translate into having everything I want in my life. I would like a more challenging career. I would like a fulfilling relationship. To get those, I am making fundamental changes for someone else. Clearly, I don’t impart to others those characteristics that draw them to me, so I am changing in order to be the person they want- at least to some level.
A good example of this is ballroom dancing. I love to dance. I like to dance with other people who like to dance. Would I enjoy going ballroom dancing every night of the week? Absolutely not. Coming home after a night of dancing, all I want is to sit quietly on my own for a while. It takes me a few hours to decompress and relax. I do it because I meet new, interesting people. Otherwise, I could dance around my kitchen, sing along like a crazy person and do what I want. I go out because of other people.
Do you agree with others? Are the changes I’m making not fundamental changes? If they are, am I naive and am I doing them for myself? If I am really doing them for other people, is that wrong?
Author’s Note: I would be concerned if I were making changes for a specified person. In my case, these changes are for some unknown future relationship and employer, and therefore are acceptable. In the photo, I’m in the upper left hand corner in the white gi. You can see my feet around my opponent in blue.